Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Unstained Religion

Last night I was painfully reminded, my love has limitations. As I sat there listening to urgent need to take in foster children and particularly those children who have been rescued from the sex –slave industry in America, I found a hard place in my heart. A newborn adopted baby I can handle, but a child who has been severely sexually abused daily for years? What would this do to the “peace” I have fought so hard for to have in my home? This could greatly disrupt the stable home I’ve longed to have for my children. I myself did not grow up in a functional environment and have observed myself striving to create one for my children, what of this? I have a special needs son who has been a life and death battle for the last 9 years, haven’t I had enough pain? How will I pay for this? We are barely making it right now! Oh the horrid reality of restricted love in my heart. I am pained to find such a place. I don’t mean to sound overly dramatic, but I’m feeling this. I am cornered by God. Is my love real? Is my “religion” real?

James 1:27 Pure, unstained religion, according to God our Father, is to take care of orphans and widows when they suffer and to remain uncorrupted by this world.

Why would James call that “pure” religion? ..Because you can’t fake taking in children in to your home. You can’t fake willfully taking on the burdens of others as your own. Our Christianity in the purest form is “loving God and loving others.” It’s love folks. That’s what you signed up for! And we can only truly love, because He loves us. Real love is unhindered, has no demands, is not restricted in its affections. Oh how I want to love!

I may or may not ever take in the most difficult cases, but I know one thing, I’m pursuing a love with no limitations! I’m pursuing death to any worship of the God of convenience in my life. The cross was inconvenient.

God expand our hearts, break us out of western culture, me centered, self-help, false Christianity. We want the real thing Jesus. May we be Your friends God.

As for me and my house? We will serve the Lord.

3 comments:

Viking Granny!!!! said...

WOW........ There it is.....

Josharoo said...

Emm, emm, good!

God, let me to have unrestricted love with no limits!

lindsey brooke said...

AMEN.